learn to have hope

I wonder where it all went. Where the fuck did it all go? seriously. haha im so confusing. im standing still; im not running away. i'm learning. i swear i am. i care that you hate me, i care that i broke you. i care that i let go when i shouldnt. idk. whenever i think back, i regret it. it could have been perfect. it should have been. no it shouldnt have but it could have been. still learning. still trying.