cause i'll pull down a cloud for you

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i had a nice talk with Tina today :D haha it's been such a long time since I've had someone to talk to. it was nice. i told her how i was feeling. the shit i couldn't tell anyone else cause it's like everyone else judges. it was nice though. it made me realize a lot of things. and i'm going to stop running.

i want to tell you what happened. you're going to hate me so much. but you deserve to know. haha, i don't know. so here goes. i'm ready for you to hate me all out.

we took a break for a couple months because things went so wrong. so we broke it off for a while. until we could chill and fix it. during the time he got a girlfriend and i met you. you became the center of my world instantly. i'm not even going to lie anymore. you were all i could think about. your laugh, your face, your cute random text, your voice, the convo's we had the night before. alla that good stuff. but then he came back and I had to stop. I promised him something and I couldn't go back on my words. but damn, i was so happy. so so so happy. i wasnt going to go back but too many people started telling me that we rushed things too much and everything was too fast. i fell under peer pressure. i cant believe i actually fell under it. i fell under it and went back. you were so great, so loving and you had so much of the qualities that i look for. you hella hate me. haha i know you do. so much done and so much lost. i'm hella selfish. i wanted to keep you. i seriously wanted to but shit got worse, you kept holding on while i had to get away. it hurts like hell. the best thing i had in my life for the longest time, i had to let go because of a promise i made. i can't change it now.

haha i care so much now. i dont even need to care. fml.

[ flash back of late nights camming while on the phone reading fml and sending each other the ones we thought were funny. ]

I'll circle the stars and bring you one back
I'll walk through the sun for you
Cause there's somethin you do
That got me walkin on the moon