my other half, my baby boo

i hope you feel the same way too

i hate being so weak. i hate being how i am. i hate myself. i cant make anyone happy. my goal in life was NOT to make people miserable. but fuck, that's all i know how to do. help me=[

i want to bang my head against broken glass. i want to lose myself and just pass out. i want my heart to stop beating so i can be heartless and not care about everything but i'm only human. my stupid heart cares too much.

no one knows how much i care though. how ironic. i'm so used to hiding how i feel so no one can hurt me but i was foolish. by doing so i'm hurting myself. whenever i look in the mirror. i see a fuck up, a whore, a mistake. i don't like what i am but the only way to change it is to cause more damage. i just cant do it.