day and night. the lonely loner seems to free his mind at night

i love that song.

MHS homecoming festival tmrw, i wna go to see Oso[=

my bologna has a first name! it's O-s-c-a-r
my bologna has a second name it's M-a-y-e-r
Oh I love to eat it everyday and if you ask me why i'll say:
cause Oscar Mayer has a way with B-o-l-o-g-n-a!

that was all for you Oso<3 lol

I'm all alone

Look up at the stars they laugh at me
Cause I screwed it up
I know what I said
I hear it again and again in my head

Today was a crappy day. I was late. I coudlnt get the stupid top on, it kept slipping off. after the rally, i took some pictures. I wanted to take a picture with Tien when i saw him then my camera breaks. i'm STILL EXTREMELY pissed off about that. wasted half my day being mad. then when i calmed down, i got really sleepy and fell asleep during Senor A's class. Went home, tried to make my toga & kept poking myself with the safety pin. Got mad at kevin for not helping me & for his crappy recording. I asked him to record me for Tahitian and it was crap. i got hella mad. it was just fucking pointless. asked him to do something for me so i dont have to do it the hard way [ im already in a bad mood ] he was like okay. and just layed there. i was like wow okay nvm then. it was one of those moments where i only want it when i ask for it, not later on when i'm mad. my right arrow on my keyboard is broken. i cant take pictures for tmrw's football game because my fucking camera is broken. UGHHH WTF!?!?!!?!?!?!?!? i think the only good thing was going to college night and seeing john & steven there. hung out with steven and heizell later on. it was cool.

i seriously need some real female friends. not those acquaintances who i can say hi to. i need a real friend who doesn't fucking bail on me cause of some guy or richer girls. someone i can actually talk to about my stupid girl problems. there are some things girls can do and guys cant. this is pathetic. FML

I know what i did wasn't clever but me and you were meant to be together

tomorrow is the thingy that has AJ Rafael and other performers. I'm not sure if i'll make it on time =/ I bought my HC dress today.[= it's black and glittery. today was an off day.

I didn't pay attention during LC training. school's been calling home saying that i ditch class. some girl in my accounting class was tlking shit abt tahitian dance club so i had to set her right. my LC kids are retarded. I dont like those stupid freshmen. I dont see why they have to act so immature. shittt, c/o 10 wasn't like that when we were freshmen. majority of us were actually fine. c/o 13? acts like boppers. it's sad. but whatever. i sent one of the kids out. he annoyed me deeply.

tahitian practice ended early. i signed up for like 7 clubs. haha i gotta find a way to manage it though cause some of them are on the same day.

got in an argument with my mom. it was a pointless argument but i was still mad about it so i left. khoi and heizell asked me to hang out with them. we went to pho yen and got pho. it was fun. i paid for it cause i only had a 50. haha i dont have anymore small change so yeeah. i bought a dress later on. we well they were going to go to the football game today but i didnt want to. i just wanted to go home so khoi suggested we go to his house. we watched pirates of the carribean " at world's end. i fell asleep during it. then went home at 8 30 cause my sister called me.

no one noticed i was home. around 10 mikey came over and we hung out. i love venting to him. i feel so much better without all the anger. there's something about him that let's me just talk without all the anger i have. it's amazing.

called bernard. he's at his friend's house. i wish i had that much freedom to just go out for that long. soon. i can't wait to move out.

my nails glow in the dark.