i spent too much engery onit

holy shit. awkward. haha. i hope that doesnt happen again. i dont like being somewhere i feel like im helllaaaa disliked. i mean, i know and understand why but i still hella dont want to be here. sorry. as much as it's cool to hang out with you. this was helllaa weird for me.

Baby, you're my everything

you're all i've ever wanted

but lately it's like you're fucking sadistic. you put me in pain and you enjoy it. I know you know this. why? i thought you love me. what the fuck is going on? it's horrible. I'm blamed for everything! I DON'T EVEN HAVE TO BE THERE FOR IT TO BE MY FAULT! sometimes, i think you're trying to see how far you can push me. I was made for you to step all over me. i know i let you but it's because i'd rather be the one hurt then letting you get hurt. but you know what? sometimes you gotta feel the agony to gain strength. no pain no gain. quit being a dick. no matter how much i tell you, how long i plead, you still treat me the same. then give me the " i just miss you" excuse. shit, i miss you too but i'm not putting you through hell because i'm there.

tonight, i want to sleep in the dark without music. let the darkness take over me. let silence consume me. I don't want to feel this empty void where my heart should be. Where is my heart anyways? my torn up, beaten to bits, bloody, shard stabbed heart. i don't want this heart. but i need it to survive. why can't i be like iron man? the nigga gots a light where his heart should be.

Thanks wahwah. for putting up with my stupidity. it's outrageous. how mature i act yet how immature i am for being this way. thanks for listening when others don't. i know it's because i've worn them out with the same problem but you listen to the other crap they don't care for. thanks<3