soy aburrida

F.U TIEN+KEVIN! I'm going to be alone for the next 3 days! GAHH! [ not including Tuesday]

BOTC was today[= It was fun. I dance and I messed up on one part but I doubt anyone noticed it haha. It's weird! I saw him EVERYWHERE at school today! -_- the urge to smack him across the face for leaving me then hugging him because I slapped him is starting to grow stronger. I wonder how much longer I'm going to keep up with this. I swear, I get sad inside whenever I see him.

I was pretty pissed off yesterday. I just wanna yell and bitch and scream at them for being able to make me feel this way. giving me space? bullshit. i'm not hella attached to my boyfriend. -_- i would know if I am. I hate people assuming so much shit about me and never asking. then I'd get hit with the " well you didnt tell me" NO FUCKING SHIT. CAUSE YOU DON'T FUCKING ASK, YOU JUST ASSUME. ugh. i'm getting so fed up with this nonsense! make up your fucking mind. I've been told that they both love me like a sister like i'm their blood. psh, yeah right. blood that they've disowned because they think they should give me space. what type of bullshit excuse is that? I'm not the one trying to make everything different. I'm not even doing anything wrong and you guys are STILL making me feel like I've changed oh so much. this is pointless. If you wanna talk then just talk. I have a phone, I have aim, myspace, facebook, xanga, blogger, yahoo, msn, gmail, and friendster. I have everything you guys do so why is it SOO hard for you guys to keep in touch? I can't be expected to do everything.